List of Love

Here's a list of things that men can do & i will nodoubtinstantlyfallinlove with them
-stand outside my window with my favorite song playing on speakers
-moonlight picnic in the spring
-heathledger10thingsihateaboutyou: get a song on the loadspeaker and sing it to me
-have them grab me and put me on top of their shoulders
-a bouquet of flowers, with my favorite flowers: 1 rose, 4 lillies, 3 alstroemerias, 2 gerbera daisies, 2 lilacs, bunches of cherry blossoms. :)
-randomly come and pick me up and take me on a date
-get me a puppy. 
-dance in the rain with me
-take me to a different city
-slow dance 80's style


I'll keep adding them as I think of them :)

Past

Things aren't just gone. Hurt doesn't go away. I know I can get over you. I'm working on it, trust me. But it's just that I miss you so fucking much. The problem isn't if I can move on, the problem is how much of you will I be taking with me?
You haven't and ever just gone away. Im still playing by your rules, just out of habit. The pictures haven't gone away yet and memories never will. Things are happening and I know a little about how to take care of myself, though it's hard because that's what you did. I still love you, but definitely not as much. I'm getting there. I'm getting over you and I know that's what needs to happen. But you're still here. I want you to know that, somehow. That you're not gone. I don't know how you could be. Yet, I know I'll have to let go of that part soon as well. But that will come with time. I can feel myself going away from you...but the connection, the memories and everything. Absolutely everything. That's still there and is probably gonna be there for a bit longer. I love you and I'm almost over you. I just miss you. That's all. I still cry when I see pictures or get reminded of anything. It's loss and grieving...missing what we had, when you were there. Memories and my connection to you won't ever fade. Just everything else.
Just wanted you to know, darling.

You know what?

You know what sucks? Is when you go to Korea and you eat a ton of food and you lose weight! Ha....yeah. I've already dropped about 10 pounds.

Haha more in depth update later. Heading to Busan today!!!

사랑해,
소라
Sara

Whoo!

In Daejeon right now at the aunts house and my brothers little sister is on my lap playing. (Look for pics of her on Facebook!!!)
More later.

What Have I Been Doing?

Not that many of you care, but I'll tell you anyways!


Well, a LOT of shopping and coming home crashing with sore legs and feet. :) A lot of subway hopping, walking, looking, shopping. We went to Itaewon which is a beautiful city, and Insadong again, Kyobo books, Namdaemun. It's been a great time. I GOT MORE CLOTHES. YES! :) And an awesome leather jacket today. 


Anyways, I have to get up early tomorrow. We are leaving for Gyeongju...we will be meeting my brother's entire birth family (except for my other favorite cousin!) and going to the recreational facility owned by the uncle's company. It's gonna be AWESOME! And then we'll be going back to Daejeon for a couple of days to chill. :)


All in all, some awesome times. And still two weeks to go!!!!


More later. :)


Love ya,
S

Shopping and Dropping

So basically I'm wiped out. These past couple of days I've been sleeping through meals (sorry Camille!) or just cranky (which my parents don't like...but I don't really care if they don't like it). 


The weekend was great, we got to see a lot of my brother's family, and then they left to Daejeon. Yesterday, my parents and I went to Insadong, a really old, culturally traditional part of Korea to shop for Kat and Libby, and our selves, and got some really awesome things! :) I got some more clothes, FINALLY a new bag (mine fell apart...) and some other stuff. My mom got some hanji paper and stuff, and my dad got tea. Haha. Which I ordered for him. Along with the food. THE FOOD WAS AMAZING.
We went to Mandu King (liberty of Libby) and they had mandu the SIZE of your fists! It was sooo cool. They put it in this spicy broth with egg, onion, meat, etc. It was really really good...except I didn't have a lot of the mushrooms. And then I ordered Bulgogi Jeongshik which came in a stone bowl, it was bulgogi and green onions in a broth, and I mixed rice in. It was suuuper good and had a really sweet flavor which my mom and I loved.


Anyways, today, I'm not really sure what we'll be doing! :) I think we're going to the museum, so this should be fun!!! :) 


We are going to Gyeongju Thursday morning! I'm soooo excited! The WHOLE family will be there! Along with my other favorite cousin who I haven't seen yet (if he's not studying). So it should be really fun! I'm going to play the Uncle in tennis and 현정 (my other favorite girl cousin) and I are going to swimming! I'm also planning on running every morning! :) Hehe. I'm suuuper excited! And then we'll be going to Daejeon with them on Saturday, then Busan two days later, and after staying in Busan for four days, we'll be going back to Daejeon for the rest of the time! :)


All and all, this'll be a pretty nice trip. Just long...too long. I'm missing my certain someone much too much. I'll be home soon, though!! :)


Have an awesome week!
사랑해,
Sara
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FML

I HATE this...I can't stop crying....