List of Love

Here's a list of things that men can do & i will nodoubtinstantlyfallinlove with them
-stand outside my window with my favorite song playing on speakers
-moonlight picnic in the spring
-heathledger10thingsihateaboutyou: get a song on the loadspeaker and sing it to me
-have them grab me and put me on top of their shoulders
-a bouquet of flowers, with my favorite flowers: 1 rose, 4 lillies, 3 alstroemerias, 2 gerbera daisies, 2 lilacs, bunches of cherry blossoms. :)
-randomly come and pick me up and take me on a date
-get me a puppy. 
-dance in the rain with me
-take me to a different city
-slow dance 80's style


I'll keep adding them as I think of them :)

Past

Things aren't just gone. Hurt doesn't go away. I know I can get over you. I'm working on it, trust me. But it's just that I miss you so fucking much. The problem isn't if I can move on, the problem is how much of you will I be taking with me?
You haven't and ever just gone away. Im still playing by your rules, just out of habit. The pictures haven't gone away yet and memories never will. Things are happening and I know a little about how to take care of myself, though it's hard because that's what you did. I still love you, but definitely not as much. I'm getting there. I'm getting over you and I know that's what needs to happen. But you're still here. I want you to know that, somehow. That you're not gone. I don't know how you could be. Yet, I know I'll have to let go of that part soon as well. But that will come with time. I can feel myself going away from you...but the connection, the memories and everything. Absolutely everything. That's still there and is probably gonna be there for a bit longer. I love you and I'm almost over you. I just miss you. That's all. I still cry when I see pictures or get reminded of anything. It's loss and grieving...missing what we had, when you were there. Memories and my connection to you won't ever fade. Just everything else.
Just wanted you to know, darling.